Tuesday, August 13, 2013

The Grass is Always Greener

Have y'all noticed a baby boom lately?

I know I have - those pregnant women are popping up everywhere.  I remember this time of the year from my "trying to get pregnant" days - this was one of the huge baby booms of the year.  I also remember this being a very trying time of the year when you want to be pregnant.

Let's go on and put this out on the table right now - I have no desire for another baby right now.  None.  I am loving this stage with Emma Ramey.  She is just to the point where she is somewhat independent, she's developing a personality (which can be fun sometimes and trying sometimes), but she's still young.  I want to savor every second of what I have with her before jumping into parenting two babies.

But I will admit...when I see those pregnancy announcements on Facebook, or I see the pictures of newborns, that old familiar feeling comes back a little.  For a few seconds, I want to know the feeling of being pregnant again.  I want to feel that baby kick, or find the heartbeat with a Doppler, or get the "when are you due?" questions from strangers again.

That magical feeling of having a newborn does come back a little too.  Sitting and staring at this new person in your life that you love more than anything for hours on end.  Having that newborn smell, or having them wrap their teeny little hands around your finger.  It really is something miraculous.

I guess the grass is always greener, isn't it?  We all know that no situation is all puppies and rainbows.  Being pregnant can be uncomfortable and overwhelming.  Having a newborn is tough work.  But wanting a baby is just a miserable existence, too, especially when something is keeping you from having one.  I'm not really in any of those stages right now, but I know that, even though we see the great parts of it, there can be rough parts that are so easy to forget.

I also think I'm in no hurry for baby #2 because of what we went through to get Emma Ramey here.  It was an incredibly trying time, and while I don't want to be a pessimist, I'm admitting that we may have to go through that to get another baby.  I don't know that my heart has fully healed from the first go-round of getting pregnant...it might never.  But my heart is focusing on what I do have instead of worrying about how we'll get what we will have.

So for now, I am keeping my head on straight.  I am savoring every last second of watching my 16 month old take on the world, and not worrying about the future babies just yet. There will be plenty of time to worry about them later on. :)

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