Happy Monday! Today is my second "first day of school" to not be a teacher. I remember, being a teacher, counting down those last few precious days of summer. I did count them down this year too...just out of habit.
I've had teachers on my mind for the past couple of weeks. But not really from a teacher's perspective - from a Mommy's. I've never really had to leave Emma Ramey to work. I had one little week that I had to go back when she was 2 months old, but I don't really count that. I absolutely cannot imagine how different it must be to be a working mother. Not bad, but different. I truly believe that every Mommy does what's best for her family, whether it's working or staying home. Some do it for financial reasons, and some do it because being a stay at home mom just isn't for them...I think it takes a wise, strong woman to make the right decision for her family. Being a working mother just isn't something I've ever experienced, so it's difficult to imagine what it would be like.
It's still a little surreal to not be starting school today. I get the question all the time of whether or not I'm going back once our baby (babies) are older. To be honest with you - I have no idea! I've said since I resigned from teaching that it would be a game-time decision whether or not I go back. I don't know where my mind and heart will be 5+ years from now, so I can't tell you what that decision will be. If I had to make it right now, I'd probably say no - I absolutely adore staying home. It really is my dream job...for now. But will it be forever? I don't know - so I'm leaving that question unanswered.
But as of today, I couldn't be happier with my decision to stay home. Of course, it isn't always easy. As I mentioned a few days ago, it definitely was a financial transition for us to go from two incomes to one. There are also times where it is emotionally taxing - it isn't always easy to be at home with just an infant every day. But I love it, I really do. Having the privilege to be with my little girl every day is one I don't take lightly. I have a huge responsibility, but it's one I've always wanted and couldn't be more thankful for.
To all of the teachers (and other school workers) out there - I'm thinking of you today and every day! You also have a huge responsibility and a very demanding job. I'm so thankful for those that are fulfilling their calling in this field!