Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Why I Gave Up Cold Turkey

I've just recently (like, yesterday) made a decision.

I'm giving up Facebook...for now.

Have any of you ever thought about this?  Everything that has happened in the past month has made me completely over-analyze everything, but this was one thing I felt pretty strongly about.  Since our whole situation has unfolded, Facebook has turned into something completely and totally negative.  I usually check it (once or twice a day, I'll admit) and get the worst feeling in my stomach.

The sad part, that I hate to admit?  It's jealousy.  These people (as far as I know) aren't going through a rough time.  Everything looks happy and perfect on Facebook.  I know it's not, but it looks that way. 

I want to be out of our situation.  I want it just to quit, and to go back to a time where we're not in this.  Where we're happy, and not constantly burdened with what has happened in the past two months.

But you know what?  We can't do that.  Plain and simple.  It's here, we're living with this forever.

And that's why Facebook and me just don't mix anymore.  I can't constantly be reminded that this isn't perfect.  Not to mention the fact that like 12 people I know are announcing they're pregnant a day (most of which were due very closely to the time I would have been).  Anybody that's ever been through this knows that it feels like a punch to the stomach every time I see a comment on there about being pregnant or dealing with pregnancy...not to mention the fact that my picture link is constantly full of precious babies and ultrasound pictures of perfectly healthy babies...not the empty screen I saw.

Thanks, but no thanks.  It's just too much to take right now.  So I've officially blocked the website on my computer and deleted the app off of my phone.

So, the whole point of this post (I'm rambling, I know)...if you're going through a rough time right now, and everybody else around you seems like they are living the perfect life, I understand.  And you might want to think about doing this too (at least for a little while).  Even if you're not going through a rough time, I've learned that constantly comparing ourselves to everyone else isn't healthy.  This is my first step to disconnecting with that.

And I must say, the first day of it feels fabulous.  This is the first day in awhile that I haven't gotten sad about it all.  It's so much easier to block it out when you aren't putting yourself in that situation.

Has anybody else ever done this?  If not, do you think you could?